oh me oh my

I decided to start writing music again, this should be interesting

Tonight

One of those nights where I feel like a robot,
Where I dont know how I feel, or how to feel.
I'm cranky but I dont know why, I'm mean for no reason and I find myself thinking
"why am I like this?"

But I dont know whats wrong, and I dont know how to fix it if I dont know whats wrong.

I was a good day! but now I just want to go to sleep because sleep will bring a new day.
I feel like I am done with today, or today is done with me.

and I have incentive to blog.
and I have no idea what to even write in my journal, so I may just date a page and turn it for tomorrow.

grandma

found these pictures online. laughing is good for the soul

Tonight

Tonight I talked about the importance of the bible in our lives as christians.

American christians have become so complacent about reading their bible... as a result many of us dont even know how to. And this generation is growing up biblically illiterate. And were already starting to see the results.

new theology
the bible as guidelines
modern "open" theology
anti biblical-literalists
and yes something that has been going on for a long time

hypocrisy.

Tonight was the second talk I have given on this subject and it seemed to go pretty well, granted I took longer than I should've, but I could've talked all night.

Last week I covered, the importance of the bible. I could talk about that for months, but one night had to do.

Tonight I covered; how to read your bible effectively.
I will continue this next week, but basically this week was;

1. meditate on it (both day and night)
2. realize that it is applicable to your life
3. challenge yourself with it, APPLY it to your life

random

So this weekend I started a journal again. I have never finished one.
Hanna got me thinking about it, I want to remember things I'm learning so that I don't forget.

History repeats itself.

But I plan on not letting that happen in my life

HAITI

I am/have been/continue to plan(ning?) a trip to Haiti at the end of this summer.
I am bringing a hand picked team of 6-9 people.
We are going to rebuild and help in any way possible.
I will be sending out support letters soon.
and posting Blogs more often on the exact details.

This has been heavy on my heart for sometime now.
I'm seriously praying about doing full time missions over there.

keep all this in your prayers
and pray without ceasing

Theres this girl

her name is hanna olivia
and i love her so much
she is my best friend
she is such an encouragement, and continues everyday to lift me up, and point me back to God.
she makes me so happy, and fills me with joy overflowing.
AND
also makes me laugh, and is funny and cute and wonderful

God continues to show me his love through this girl, and she is just wonderful.

As Cities Burn

Sometimes when listening to music I get this shiver up my spine.
This happens for a multitude of reasons, for instance;
the smoothness and aesthetics of the vocals,
the brutality of a breakdown with sheer cleanliness,
the beautiful sweeping guitar solo
(listen to "Gentlemen"(go to sleep) by Farless and you will know what I'm talking about)

Today I had one of these music seizures, my brain stops for a second, and I am consumed with what I am listening to. Today it happened to be the music of as cities burn.

It's not so much the music but more the lyrics and the heart behind the song/songs.

If I make it to heaven
I may be as bloody as hell.
Would you still take me?
I'm afraid that you might say,
"Depart from me, I never knew you."


All the love I want to give,
Gets caught between every rib.
What does that make me?
I have good intentions,
But no exit for them to come out right through.

I'm in the wrong body.
I'm in the wrong body.
I'm in the wrong body.
I must have stumbled in.

And

Well, I've got a will but I want yours
I've got a growing heap of crosses and burdens
I've simply lost heart to shoulder
Simply no strength to lift
I've always been a man in need
'cause I keep stepping in and out of the shadow

Caught by the drift and pitch of whatever it is
That keeps me coming back
I want out
'cause I'm getting sick
Sick from all this swerving
Driver, sick from turning on you

Someone show me a hole in this cycle
Show me the way away and i'm coming back
The way I came
No! I've seen this place before
Surely this is no place for the light of this world

Oh how sweet the sound
I know it saved but is it changing a wretch like me
Oh my God how sweet is the sound
I once was blind but now I just look away

Stepping in and out of the shadow
Stepping in and out
I just look away
Stepping in and out of the shadow
I just look away

Stepping in and out

My bride, I don't want to know what I'd be without
forgiveness brushing these adulterous lips

Being full of wisdom

Something that I have always wanted was to just be smart, to have the right thing to say, to have an encouraging word, a convicting message. A word of wisdom. I long to have the right thing to say at the right time. To be a light, to show people God, to reflect Jesus Christ the creator of joy, peace, comfort, wisdom, knowledge and everything. But instead I blurb out some stupid statement, and later sulk about how I could've done better.

I want to just not talk at all, unless the words that come out of my mouth are worth while.

I'm not sure if this is just selfish or not. But I am sure God will reveal my motives.

Count your blessings

I am soo blessed, yet at times I forget how blessed I really am.
Living this life, I have so many little things to find joy in.
Simply the fact that I have a roof over my head at night, or food to eat when I wake up. God has blessed me so much. And I am learning to be thankful for the little things.